End of Day Four, Start of Day Five:

Why do I not yield when I know the enemy is attacking?

Why do I persist in thinking -- "I can do it!"

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Pride.

Its as simple as that.

The fire darts of the enemy are here. They pierce me because of my lack of faith due to pride.

So then what the heck is pride and how do I get rid of it. How do I lift the shield of faith and resist the enemy?

Well, Here is pride in the hebrew. There are a couple of other similar words, but this one is used often in Job and in Leviticus when the Lord says he will break their pride.

So why do I get my butt kicked when the enemy throws his fire-y darts?

Why do I get caught off guard and give in to sin? 

Because I lift myself high. I trust in my own strength to lift me out of the darkness.

The darkness that I lead myself into by straying away from the Father.

Because I lack faith. If I had more faith in trusting Abba, I would turn to him. I would rely on him constantly. I can claim to trust him all day long, but my actions speak louder than any of the nonsense my mouth can spout.

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Abba, I repent of my lack of faith in you. Please let me learn to walk by trusting you and having faith in you. I trust that your promises are true father. Let me have the firmness to lean on you, like the man who built his house on the rock. To actively build my life on your founding principles. To walk each and everyday in the shadow of your wing . Please forgive me for standing in your place and then blaming you for not protecting me when it was my own foolish pride. I repent Abba.

Let me learn to walk in the spirit and not in the world. To walk in your truth and be set apart from the death that is crouching at my door.